~A Deep & Long Sighhhhh~

So many things have happened in the past 2 days, but today I am CLAIMING victory in the name of Jesus that we ARE going to have a GREAT day!!!!

Monday-
Without going in to every little detail I will sum it up with Keely had a reaction to one of her meds. So, I went and got her from school and she stayed at home with me and the girlies. That night I had the "Beth Moore" bible study up at the church. I went & cried(I had already decided I wasn't going to,but of course someone asked..."how are you?" and the flood gates were opened:-) about the day that I had been having; left to head home, but thought I would get gas before heading to the casa. Pulled up to the gas station.....hopped out of the car....put some gas in.....jumped back in the car.....go to start the car and a BIG FAT NOTHING happens. Of course, at this point I am freezing because clearly it would have been the best idea to wear a jacket, but I didn't. Anyway, I try it again & again & again....NOTHING! I call all the men in my life....Eric, Dad & Cam. Eric was at home with all the kiddos asleep and couldn't do anything unless I wanted him to load everyone up and come to town. Dad was working. Cam...thank goodness....was able to come and rescue me from the freezing car. While waiting for him to come I manage to find a flimsy t-shirt type jacket in the back seat to put on....did I mention that it was dark and cold! I don't like darkness anyway, but to be stranded was completely freaking me smooth out. Cam came really quick and assessed the situation determining that it might be the fuel pump. There wasn't anything that we could do right at that moment so he pushed and I steered(clearly I got the best job out of the deal) to move it out of the way.
That night it seemed as though I could hardly even pray because at that moment I didn't even know how to do so without being angry. So many things that happened to me were just everyday normal things that happen to everyone, but when you are feeling attacked in every single direction you feel as though you are scared or afraid to do anything. I know that is one of my greatest demons that I personally have to deal with. The spirit of fear! Some days it isn't as bad as others, but so many times it can be debilitating. The fear comes over you keeping you from doing the things that you normally would do with thoughts of the "what if''s". Fear is of SATAN not of God. God tells us that we are not to be fearful.(Matt 8:26) Why is that when things are going good then it is so easy for us to say that God is in control, but the minute times go sour we have so many doubts? Of course, I know the answer, but at this point I'm wondering if I am the only one that struggles with these scenarios or if this is a common occurrence with everyone? How can you be "okay" one minute with the daggers that Satan throws in your direction and in the next minute you want to crumble?
This is a true testament of "praise you in the storm".
As a teenager in youth group we would sing a song that many of you might know "Rejoice in the Lord always and again I say REJOICE." I have been singing that over and over in my head knowing that is exactly what I am supposed to do.
Praise God that He loves us just as we are....He knows that we are going to slip or stumble, but is always there with a helping hand to keep us from completely falling.

~r

~Keely is doing good and went back to school today. We are praying that God leads us to the correct combo of meds.