This is Your Life & I'm Not Who I Was.....

My 2 new favorite songs.....I love everything about these songs...

This Is Your Life by Switchfoot
Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you've got now
And today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
This is your life
Are you who you want to be
This is your life
Are you who you want to be
This is your life
Is it everything you've dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over
This is your life
Are you who you want to be
This is your life
Are you who you want to be
This is your life is it everything you've dreamed it would be when the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
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I'm not who I was by Brandon Heath
I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how I'm not who I was
I used to be mad at you
A little on the hurt side too
But I'm not who I was
I found my way around
To forgiving you
Some time ago
But I never got to tell you so
I found us in a photograph I saw me and I had to laugh
You know, I'm not who I was
You were there, you were right above me
And I wonder if you ever loved me
Just for who I was
When the pain came back again
Like a bitter friend
It was all that I could do
To keep myself from blaming you
I reckon it's a funny thing I figured out I can sing
Now I'm not who I was
I write about love and such
Maybe 'cause I want it so much I'm not who I was
I was thinking maybe
I should let you know I am not the same
But I never did forget your name
Hello
Well the thing I find most amazing
In amazing grace
Is the chance to give it out
Maybe that's what love is all about
I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how I'm not who I was

**I think it is funny how God can bless you in ways that are so unimaginable to us. I was having a bad day, a really bad day, the first time I heard the song "I'm not who I was" when I realized that I have grown so much and that I am not truly who I was. God has healed the things in my life that I thought were the unspeakable to have been healed. I had unforgiveness in my heart that effected every aspect of my life....I never realized how much I needed to forgive and allow God to heal past relationships or people who have hurt me or that I have hurt. Once I allowed God to show me that His love was so much more powerful than any hurt that I could have I was able to move forward and love the way I was supposed to. Trying not to judge or allow my tongue to get in the way of His work in my life. I also realized what a wonderful gift from God my handsome husband and beautiful children are, as well as, what my purpose in their life is. Each one of them need that special part of me that only a wife or mother can give. To be able to take pride in the fact of being that person is something that only God could show me. I am not the "career mom" nor was I ever. I think women who can juggle all of those things are phenomenal, but I personally can not ever seem to juggle all of the work and wife and mom duties very well. But if I put my focus on what God has personally called me to do then He always shows me how to prioritize everything....down to how to juggle everything with Keely in the correct manner.
Everything that each of us may go through makes us able to relate and be able to love others more because of our mistakes. None of us are perfect, but the one thing that we can all do for each other is be the open hearted person who can always be there with a lending ear and a promise of prayer. And through the promise of prayer there is hope and faith that only God can give & that is who we really have to put our trust in!

~Renay